Post by Jesenia Rey on Jun 28, 2013 7:30:06 GMT -7
OUTFIT
Life wasn't supposed to be this complicated was it? It seemed like life had gone from bad to worse in a matter of months for Jes and it started the day she found out certain things from her father's past, things that concerned her mother. That was the day she had started things up with Danny....and yes there were good times, she wouldn't deny that, but their relationship was not a healthy one. And when it ended, life had felt...difficult. And then there were things with Blaise. Jes wasn't even sure what they were honestly. He had told her that he loved her adn then they...well..yea. But, after that Jes couldn't really bring herself to even speak to him for the rest of the summer. It was just so, awkward. But, it wasn't like he was owling, or trying to speaking to her. He didn't try at all in fact. Which sort of made Jes angrier as she thought about it. She partly felt that she might have not spoken to him purposely, hoping he would reach out to her, and when he didn't it hurt.
Supposedly there was something Jes' father needed to speak to her about. She wasn't sure what, but the tone of his last letter was not one that seemed happy or pleasant. She had no idea what it could be about, but she was very curious. Her father didn't have many secrets, of course there was that one major one. But, honestly when things started to go downhill, Alain normally told Jes, and that was what Jes was fearing. It felt like bad news was approaching.
She sat down by the edge of the lake, tossing a few stones in every now and then, just enjoying the silence. But, then again, Jesenia wasn't really in silence, her thoughts were very loud. Screaming even. Seeing Danny the other day...that was just difficult. And she didn't know how she felt about it. It was almost like..like she was entertaining the idea of being his friend. Which was strange, considering they never were friends. They had..just jumped into being together, friendship would be something different. And as much as she hated this thought, Jes wondered if that would bother Blaise. She wondered if he would care that she had contemplated writing Danny over the summer, if he would care that she saw him. Though they only bumped in to each other accidentally. But, she did hate herself for even caring. It was innocent, and apparently she and Blaise weren't really anything, so it's not like his opinion even mattered. Slowly it was starting to feel like they weren't even friends anymore, like she lost her best friend. Of course it felt like that. Sleeping with him, and then not speaking all summer...that's not what friends do really. She also wondered...if Blaise had the same weird thoughts about their parents that Jes did. They were...very cozy during that dinner. And the way Jes' father looked at Blaise's mother....oh she knew that look. It was a hungry look. Suddenly Jes was very scared about what news her father might have.